Papaw

The picture are from my wedding.

This weekend......

SO the weekend started off with hope. David and I planned on going to the lake house to hang out and help finish the plumbing. We were leaving early in the morning until... another argument begun. I always heard that the first year of marriage is the hardest, but it hasn't gotten any easier. We seem to argue over the dumbest things and both of us are so stubborn that we drag it out, say things that we don't mean (he better not mean them)and make the situation worse. I decided I needed some space and so I packed a bag, kissed my dog goodbye and split. I went shopping (just looking not buying) and contemplated going to the lake by myself. I had looked forward to it all week and was determined not to let him take that away from me. But if you know me you know I hate driving by myself so in the end I chickened out. Instead I spent the night at my Granny's with mom to help give her a break. We took care of Papaw so she could sleep. We cooked steaks on the grill and swam. It was really nice. Papaw wakes up off and on. He woke up around 2 and stayed awake awhile-then again at 4 and stayed awake. My heart breaks every time I look at him. I cant hold myself together so I sneak out of the room for awhile. Everything hurts him- when we have to move him he grimaces and makes the most awful faces. I always tell him I am sorry for hurting him and he tells me I didn't but I know that he is just saying that. I have lost loved ones before, but I have never been there first hand to watch them slowly slip away. It is truly the hardest thing I have ever experienced. I know there are lots of people praying for our family and Papaw. PLEASE ask the Lord to help him not be in pain-not to hurt when his loved ones touch him. Keep praying and thanks for thinking of us. It means the world to me.

Happy Anniversary

Today is our 3 year anniversary. It has been a long and rough road for us but we are still here. Marriage has taught me a lot. It has taught me how to give more than I have ever imagined possible. It has taught me to compromise even when I KNOW I am right. More than anything it has shown me that once you are married there are no more "my dreams"- they become our dreams and you work at accomplishing them together. Our vows have taken on a whole new meaning for me. The whole "richer or poorer" is a tough one. But today I realized that I don't want to be rich- I just want to be poor. Normal works for me~ At the end of the day although my husband is not perfect- I love him and his imperfections- because those imperfections make him who he is. People change- not the way you might want them to- but they do change. Love the person for who they are- not who they might have been.

Happy Father's Day

We spent the day today with my Papaw. He was out of it most of the day so I hung out in the pool while David helped my Uncle Ed, Dad, Kevin and Doug with the yard work. Before we left Papaw was awake and talking. He has been running a fever and not been as coherent. I was so thankful to have spent the day with him.

There is not a day that goes by that I am not so glad to have my dad. I tell him all the time he is like a Cadillac and my husband is a pinto! LOL! My dad has supported and spoiled me my whole life. When I was little he brought a toy home for me every day. I would wait at the door and say "what'd you bring me today daddy?" He was at every drill team performance and a whole lot of practices. When I cheered he was at every game. Of course he was there for every heartache and always took it as hard as I did. I always say I get my determination from my mom and my soft heart from my dad. Dad and I usually shop together at least once or twice a month. I know- my dad shops!! He calls me his personal shopper. Even if he is going to the dollar store up the street - he calls me to tag along. My dad is the type of man I want my sons (if I ever have any) to become. I know he will be a great G-Daddy because he spoils Jackson rotten already!

Happy Father's Day Dad!! You are one in a million even if you prefer store bought red velvet cake to mine!!

Our new blog...

It seems so hard to get in touch with all of our family and friends so I am creating a blog to make my life a little easier. I have enjoyed my friend Kelli's this past year and decided I would try it out.

I am currently teaching summer school and will be until July 1st. It is not bad and the money is good so why not? David is looking for another job. Please let us know if you hear of anything. His new job did not work out ):

My papaw got to come home from the hospital yesterday. It has been over a week since he had his brain tumor removed. For those who do not know (cant remember who I have told- see why blogging is so much easier) his tumor had caused him paralysis on the left side. Although he still does not have much feeling he has his sense of humor back and is more alert and responsive. He made a decision this week to not proceed with any more chemo- he wants to enjoy his time with his family and not be sick. I am so proud of him! He has fought this battle very courageously.

So David is sitting here telling the dumbest things to write because he thinks this whole thing is stupid. Next time you see him tell him how much you enjoy reading it just to prove him wrong!